Life changes the instant get those two little lines on a pregnancy test and I’m not talking about the type of change that your body/hormones go through. I’m talking about when reality begins to set in and you begin to realize that it will no longer be about you. When one begins to realize that life will never be the same and consider the notion of the immense responsibility that awaits once the baby is born. That our bodies are temporarily being rented out to make room for what will become the next generation.
With this in mind, I often think that I was able to walk into a store and buy a gum with no real issues. Now with a baby that is no longer a newborn and is far from being a man, everything I do has to be for a reason. If I go out to run errands, I make it a point to map out my route. Limiting the amount of times I will have to pull out a car seat that with a growing baby in it becomes a little too heavy to handle.
Something as simple as taking a shower needs to be scheduled between a feeding and a nap. How things that I once thought were so important or something that I believed in wholeheartedly doesn’t seem to be as important or significant.
Sleep was something that I couldn’t get enough of but have become rather grateful with the few hours of shut eye that I manage to get on a daily basis. How sitting down for a few minutes to unwind or get my thoughts in order is what gets me by on most days and am satisfied.
Despite having doubts and uncertainties of doing things right and the urge to open a window and shout from the rooftops for all to hear, suddenly disappears when my son looks at me with that innocent loving smile. Being a mom is lifelong adventure of a lifetime and in my humble opinion, is definitely worth the trip.